Someone dies from an alcohol related collision. Kaileigh was chosen to participate in the program at her school as one of “the living dead”. When the school contacted us a few weeks ago and asked us to participate, we were both pretty emotional about it then. Less than a week later, our close friend Jon Maxey unexpectedly passed away. This process just became that much more emotional for Jono and I.

We both strongly feel that if Kaileigh’s participation in this event stops just one person from getting behind the wheel after they have been drinking, then the recent emotional rollercoaster we’ve been riding will be all worth it. And we’re kind of on the periphery of it. She was the one who had to be pulled from class today by the Grim Reaper and have her obituary read in front of the class by a police officer. Then she met with the other program participants and really got into the roll with the make-up, blood, etc. Some of the kids were taken to the hospital in “critical condition” and one student was DOA, her parents had to go to the morgue. I don’t know if I could have handled that. The phone call was hard enough….

I thought I would be pretty ok through all of this. I teared up a bit at the parent meeting a few weeks ago, and have been emotional ever since, with Jon’s passing, and then thinking about what would be happening with this and how it would possibly be if something like this ever did happen to our family. Then when the SJPD called me this morning, even though I knew they would, the call just seemed so real. I had to keep it in the back of my mind that we were just acting, that Kaileigh really is ok, she’s still my baby girl. But then not getting to see her until tomorrow, certainly adds to the realism of the whole thing.

This evening we went up to the school to meet with the firemen, paramedics, and the other families who were chosen to participate. On the way to the gym/auditorium, gravestones have been set up to represent each of the students who were involved. A bit shocking to see our daughters tombstone

Tonight I am going to sleep knowing that I am blessed, that my family is safe, and praying that this is the closest I will ever get to having this alternate reality.